An Illogical Truth

As spirits in a physical body, we use concepts to anchor our psyche in this world such as love and truth. Depending on individual personality and social environment, these concepts are arbitrary to the strength in which we apply them, but we need something to hang our hat on. We need guideposts to find our way as we navigate our way through society. We all have a perception of what we believe as true and in this age of science and mental acuity, our ability to witness and reason is generally what we use to discern the truth. In other words, if it's logical, if it makes sense then it must be true. However not all truths are based in our logic, they just don't make sense to us here on earth. For instance, a person that chooses to drink alcohol and thus become an alcoholic has increased the complexity of functioning as a member of society. It isn't logical to be an alcoholic, making life in general more difficult but the truth is that they are an alcoholic. An argument could be made that no one chooses to be an alcoholic, but is there anyone that doesn't know the risk when they choose to drink? The practice of this concept ties into faith of course, but in my understanding I am working hard at grasping this so that it is second nature. Our human experience is constantly challenging us to ask, "How can I believe in what I cannot see?" The quick answer is usually, "You believe in air, don't you." But that is backed by scientific discovery and evidence. The witnessing of my ego and the discovery of my soul is beyond our earthly concepts and logic. So I will happily and excited continue on my journey; letting go of conventions and discovering new concepts of truth and love.

God speed

A Marked Improvement

When we are on a journey, especially one of learning, we are usually too busy trying to make our way to notice how far we've come. Then an event will happen and it gives us cause to pause and we have a moment to look at where we are in our journey and then realize the progress that we've made. I experience this all the time but the other day I was getting that old feeling of needing some appreciation that never came. I didn't get all bent out of shape and then I caught myself and realized that that isn't me, it is my ego. Now in this moment I was not celebrating my victory, my mind was still mired in reconciling my ego against my true self. I got side tracked and busy with other things and forgot about it. The next day I had much better clarity about it and on this day I was able to separate my emotions from my thoughts and look at things objectively. I realized that I didn't need the appreciation and moved on. Now that is a victory because the old me would have stewed on that, on not receiving a word of appreciation until it erupted in passive aggressiveness or anger. God speed!

A Journey In The Psyche

I want to update you on my progress in observing my ego. With every encounter of discomfort in my daily interactions with people, I consider what is upsetting me. I assess what it is about my ego that is hungrily craving a fix. The term fix seems to be appropriate in the context of satiating an addiction. This observance and subsequent analysis is, at the moment, all that I can accomplish. According to the experts this is all there is to do. However, my desire at the moment of discomfort is to respond appropriately, it may even cross my mind what to say, which is another step forward in the right direction. This is contrary to my previous behavior of always taking my perception of the high road, which evolved into a habit of thanking an incompetent or offensive person. Thank them for what? I would try to find any positive thing that I could. I know, it sounds silly to me too now. But at the time it was an amalgamation of turning the other cheek and my desire to be a positive role model to rise above the wicked world. Essentially it was a coping mechanism that left me feeling OK about myself and sorry for the other. Yes, even a nice person like me will use subversive contrivance, vainly attempting to elevate my stature for the sake of another to try to make myself feel better. But this is a discussion for another day. For now all I can do is observe.

God speed